Love After Midnight

Happy Thanksgiving to you all. Today is usually a happy day for me but this year was meh, I spent it alone at home watching tv and on my laptop. I didnt get turkey dinner, and I didnt see my sisters and brother or my dad. Hell I didnt see my kiddos, which is sad cause they arent that far away from me but it is what it is. I just feel like this year Thanksgiving isnt hitting like it usually does and I dont think Christmas is either. I am trying so hard now to get my writing out there now but at the same time its kinda feeling like I was too late. Like if I had more time and energy to write more it would be great which could definitely happen if I was fully working from home or able to just focus on my writing, but I have bills to pay and mouths to feed and it just feels like everything is just tooo much. I am also very single so theres that to deal with too. Reading and writing is how I dealt with some loneliness but it doesnt feel like its going to be that easy. This year has just been a hard one and I thought that when i decided to post my stories online it would be great and it has been but now its the hard work of getting people interested in. Not that i thought i would post and automatically people would come running to read and buy my stuff but I didnt realize how hard this was going to be doing it on my own and not having an agent or manager doing it for me. As they say what doesnt break me will make me stronger, I will get this together and I will find a way to make my dream come true, and i will remember that all this is happening and will be my blessing in the end.